Another one to spoil the day!!!

Yeah!

Another one...

Its not a news anymore...

A blast again... a suicide blast for that!!!

I don't know how and when, if ever, will this all end......

This time its neither peshawar nor sawat!!

It's The Capital city.... the peaceful once islamabad!!...

I was having a good time and suddenly a message telling me to check news.... as my friend was concerned for her mom being out for a place near the site of blast....

May everybody be safe and sound....

And i hope it ends for everybody's sake!

All those who brain wash 17 year olds for their mean purposes are doomed to burn in hell....

Tere Bina.........

i have no idea why but i want to keep listening to this..... for as long as i can...

it sort of has its effect directly and deeply on the soul......

Love it like anything.............

And nidz!!!! thanks for reviving my love for such a beloved song after quite a long time... :)

it helps me to bear the worst trials at time.... :)

Tere bina zindagi se koi.........shikwa to nahi

shikwa nahi

Tere bina zindagi bhe lekin.... zindagi to nahi

zindagi nahi

Over the Top MEME!

Part One - Describe:

Your hair?
black

Your mother?
is busy in kitchen right now!

Your father?
is busy with the daily office routine :P

Your favorite food?
anything cheesy.....yum yum.... pizza ;)

Your dream last night?
was quite horrible.... today was the last day to submit my fee and all the night i had been dreaming that somehow i did'nt manage to submit it and therefore they kicked me out of the college and hence all my doctor dreams got crushed... (I know its stupid but it was quite depressing to think about it... although the maximum it could have resulted in was some fine charged for late submission....)

anyways, a dream is a dream.... and it disturbed me enough to wake me up in a strange state and call dad right away to remind him about it :)

Your favorite drink?
not very particular..... :S lets say, chocolate milkshake :P

Your dream/goal?
to make everyone who is dear to me, happy :)

The room are you in?

is the lounge.......

Your hobby?
blogging, thinking, reading.

Your fear?
is to fail in what i want to accomplish...

Your TV?
is off right now... and irritates me as nothing can grasp my attention and interest for more than 5 minutes on any of it's channels..

Your Pets?
none.

Friends?
Know who they are :)

Your life?
is managing itself quite well.

Your mood?
is usually off.... but its okay at the time... i wont bite if you let me do whatever i want :P

If you're missing someone?
i will keep missing as most of the times it cant be helped.....

Your best friend?
time will tell.... only in my grave will i know who was truly the ONE....

Part Two - The Where's?

Where do you want to be in 6 years?
in a good hospital and probably doing some specialization... or planning for it in near future

Where were you last night?
at home

Where did you grow up?
islamabad mostly.... but i havent quite finished the process :P so it was first in islamabad, then dubai and then back to islamabad.... and is going on :P

One place that I go to over and over?
my khala's place ;)

Your favorite place to eat out?
any good cosy place with friends..... but with no noise.... peace is all i seek in life.. :)

Wish list items?
a good camera (which keeps on working for long even after many falls :P), a cottage in some valley surrounded by hills....you may call it a summer house... :), i wont mind a laptop, personally owned car (any in good condition would do) and it will keep on going :P

Last time you laughed?

second day of eid... evening! while we were photo shooting ourselves...... :P

Last time you cried?
the night of 29th november, sunday..... felt alone and miserable all of a sudden...

Part Three - The What's?

Something that you aren't?
egoistic (although i am blamed for being that), selfish and arrogant...

Last thing you did?
text message to a college friend... (an old one....Anum)

What are you wearing?

shalwar kameez, printed and blue mainly... with a grey sweater :)

Something you're not wearing?
dupatta :S

Your favorite store?

i am not particular about shopping :)

YOU CAN ALSO ENJOY ANSWERING ABOUT YOURSELF.... HERE

Eid And MEHNDI!!!!....

Eid is incomplete without mehndi....... but this time it was so busy that i got time for it when eid was almost over.........

will be back with a detailed post on why it was busy later!!!!

For now, EID MUBARAK to everybody ;)

(belated though)

Just another day!!

Sometimes life seems to pass without our slightest notice of it....

There are many a days in our life when nothing of significance happens.....

Today, was one of them...

Yes! It was just another day....

Sometimes life seems so purposeless that you start questioning your very own existence.....

Why are you living? Why are you in this particular corner of the world? Why you are so useless?

Well, there are times when this uselessness has its own charms...

But after a certain period of NOTHINGNESS....

You just get tired of it...

You get tired of the sun rising every day precisely in the same place it did on the last, you get tired of the same old boring phases of moon....

Times like these....

EITHER make you, or break you!!....

The latter seems more probable to those who are used to surrendering to fate.....

But the truth is.... the toughest trials of life will bring the best out of you at their end!!

And yet, at times the trials seem never ending...

Yes! thats the very thing which makes them THE TOUGHEST!!.....

BACK TO BLOGGING!!!

The title in itself is enough to signify that i had been away from this for quite a time now...

My fingers yearned for this freedom to go on as they wished.....

But there were many hurdles.......MANY... n Big ones for that!!

Well, had to prepare for PROFFS...(1st professional exam part 1)..

Although now i think it was in vain....

Especially, considering the great performance I gave in them after whole night study marathons (with more nervous texting and less study)...

Anyways, we got those vacations... the treat after the nightmare of proff we had been waiting for since our session started...

The VAILA time to be exact.....

i slept and slept which is the best you can do if you have nothing else at hands...

Then, quite a long trip to my village..... unexpectedly long....

And then, after all this i finally came back home...

still could not convince myself to blog because...

I thought this looong neglected blog actually needed something great to start up with...

I tried to invent something great but since even after twisting my imagination to every angle possible, putting as much strain as my nerves could endure and trying to pen down something classic and resulting in lots of wasted paper and ink... i decided in favour of going random for a start :) (pretty much the same i always do)

So, here i am...

typing whatever goes straight from my mind to my fingers... :S

Hows life??

The biggest question whenever i come to blogging....

Its good.

I know "good" is a very non descriptive term in itself...

It tells you nothing...

There is always room for improvement... to make it BEST and always a reason for gratitude because at least its not the WORST......

Its not busy...

which gives me plenty of time to fret about stuff to which i should have never given a second thought..

And it gives me time to have some fun filled moments which i would not have probably enjoyed otherwise.....

Yesterday was a shocker....

I woke up with a surprise..... Very unexpected though

It made me feel no better than i was before....

The day passed somehow... they always do...

Nothing stops the sun from rising and setting at its fixed time.....

I had two bad cuts on my left hand, and that is the reason i am typing with just one hand right now... (Telling this although any body reading this will not be the least concerned how i typed this)

Well, it was painful, it hurted ....

BUT... It was nothing compared to some other pains which maybe can never be explained!!

I did not mention the worst part but the cause of it knows how to make it better... so i leave that on Hope...

And the best part is that never ending Hope..... which makes me go on every time life pushes me backwards....

Since, my brain is still shooting jumbled thoughts with no particular direction.... I will leave the rest for some other time...!!

But, i will be coming more often now that i have started it again...

Wishing everybody the best life can possibly offer... Stay blessed! (Amen)

Defense Day... Pakistan Zindabad!!

Its the time of the year, when patriotism is at its maximum height....

I love listening to mom and dad telling long stories, recalling the actual scene.....

The real adrenaline rush of 1965....

I love listening to all those jangi taraney.....

Aye rahey haq key shaheedoo.....

ay puttar hattan tey nai vikdey.....

and many more....

My one mamu was born during the 1965 war....

Mom was too young then to remember anything exept for what nana jan told her....

And dad... Oh he was a kid....

He tells how they would cheer up loud whenever a fighter flew above them...

yeah... he had been a part of the blackout..... the naarey bazi.....

I am proud of the way our army fought with spirit not arms....

Its the spirit of Pakistan which has kept it going.....

Oh yes,... and i love watching those plays about The Nishan e Haidar winning shuhda....of the PAk army...

The situations, the crisis can not dampen our spirit......

We will rise again every time someone pushes us down and reach even greater heights....

Yes, its just not a piece of land.... its our motherland....

AND we will defend it till the last drop of our blood.....

Pakistan ZINDABAD!!

aye rahe haqq key shaheedo, wafa ki tasveero, tumhe watan ki hawaeyen salam kehti hain... .